What you see isn’t always what you get

brother: “Baka hindi mo pa alam kung ano ang render”

me: -silent-

Oh Lord, he just can’t stop trying to prove he’s better than me. Bago pa nya nalaman ang ibig sabihin ng render (in art) I was already wowing people (pardon the bragging). I wonder how is it living with me as a sister haha!

Seriously, he doesn’t have to be competitive and all that. i’m starting to get pissed-off. We both have our strengths and we’re very different. I acknowledge his being good with technology and yah i admit i’m a bit dummy when it comes to that department. So see, God is fair.

You read it right. News are circulating that abs-cbn is planning to do a TV version of the novel, starring Rayver Cruz and Shaina Magdayao. My initial reaction? “HAHAHAHA!” That’s ridiculous. Bababuyin lang nila yung story at puro kacheesyhan lang ang gagawin nila. Itigil ang kalokohang ito!

Cast (unofficial):
Rayver Cruz as Edward Cullen
Shaina Magdayao as Isabella Swan
Valeen Montenegro as Alice Cullen
Gabby Concepcion as Dr.  Carlisle Cullen
Luis Manzano as Emmett Cullen
Al Tantay as Charlie Swan
Yayo Aguila as Renee Dwyer
Fred Payawan as Jacob Black
Carlos Agassi as James
Chin Chin Gutierrez as Esme Cullen
Karylle as Rosalie Hale
Joross Gamboa as Jasper Hale
Jessy Mendiola as Jessica Stanley
Empress Schuck as Angela Weber
Brad Murdoch as Laurent
Nikki Bacolod as Victoria
Aaron Villaflor as Mike Newton

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“I’M SO HAPPY.  Hindi na si Catherine Hardwicke and director ng New Moon. I’m very very happy. yehey!! “

And November 26 came. I’ve been waiting for this date for like… forever.

Twilight the movie had very much reached my expectation—from casting to execution. Congratulations. Oh by the way, that was a negative expectation, just to make myself clear.

So many short-cuts but… hey what do you expect from a two hour film? I can let go of that. Let me fast track on the casting. First and foremost, who on earth made the casting? I wish they consulted Stephenie before choosing the final cast. Robert didn’t do justice on Edward. He wasn’t even enchanting. I have nothing against Rob. I think he’s a very humble person but this is about acting. He sucked. Kristen wasn’t Bella at all. She looks tough—contrary to Bella’s character. Rosalie, oh my God, author’s pick (a model named Joan) for the character would be perfect. She’s suppose to be a goddess. I was expecting a more buff Emmett. Esmee didn’t look 26 and Carlisle..well…was ok. I thought Alice looked a little old but she pulled it off with the acting. I like her. Same with Jasper. But it’s a little funny looking at him. I can’t believe I’m whining again about the casting.

The one scene that made me cringed the most was the biology class scene wherein Edward was struck by Bella’s scent for the first time. His acting was HORRIBLE. I wish the director highlighted Edward’s tension—close-up on fist and eyes to make the scene interesting and to establish his control for the desire. The baseball scene was the most decent scene, I think. Not bad but not good either. There’s supposed to be a “rush”… an excitement… thrill. Obviously the director wasn’t successful. Again, in that particular scene, Edward’s acting was horrible. That’s my favorite part of the novel, for crying out loud.

Overall, the movie is just a big disappointment. In New Moon, since they can’t do anything about the cast, I hope they get a better director.

When you’re home alone—no father wandering around, no mother trying to keep the four walls of your place intact, no annoying brother who bugs you on this and that—you finally get your moment of silence. Triumphant, as if screaming on the top of your lungs “I am the queen of the house”.

It’s a good thing, right? Being alone at times, thinking about things—your future, your present, your past. Oh yes, my past. If only I could just filter the good ones.Earlier, a memory hit me so hard I just wanted to faint. I was embarrassed—of myself, of course.

It has been five years since I ran into him, saw his disappointed look that merely acknowledged my greeting, and put on my innocent pretense—smiling and waving at him like a fool, but the picture in my head is still so vivid. I couldn’t help but feel bad. I waited for that hole to come, and when it finally came, I slipped away. It’s not that I didn’t like him. In fact, I never shed a tear for any other guy but him. But “us” was just complicated. So without a word I ran away leaving him at the edge of the cliff. How could I be an insensitive heartless bitch? To make an excuse, I’m not the type who’s good with words. As a result, I’ve never been outright expressive. Alright, that’s an excuse but not a good one. I blame it on my innocence. I was nineteen and didn’t know how to handle such things (that’s right Kaye, blame it on the age).

Once in a while, he crosses my mind. Sometimes I wonder what he’d been doing. Where on earth is he now? How will I react now if ever I see him again? It’s not in my nature to regret. Things happen. That’s the way how life goes. You make mistakes, you learn from it. I guess after all these times I haven’t got over the thought of “what if I took the other path?” You can’t blame me, he’s a good man. But that’s just a thought. From then ‘til now I knew my decision was right. I had a fight with my conscience, my faith prevailed. I won’t elaborate so much. Like I said, it was complicated. I just hope that he’s doing well. I never really said sorry to him.

I’m sorry.

Last night was the first night of UP fair 2008 and it was AWESOME. First night and yet the line up was incredible. Bamboo+Parokya ni Edgar+Kamikazee= riot.

I arrived at the Sunken Garden at around 8:30pm and got in almost an hour after. Seemed like a lot of people wanted to be part of the fair kick-off. Anyway, it wasn’t long enough when the “cool” bands started performing. I couldn’t help get excited when I saw Jomal on the stage. I knew it was Kamikazee’s turn. Around 11:30, I guess, they stepped the stage followed by Parokya. It was a blast. They never fail to make the crowd go wild. It was funny when I looked back on how I much I screamed “Vinci” when he came out. I even remember being sad when telling Irene “wala si Vinci”. They sang “yes yes show”—one of my favorites—and order taker. It could have been better if Kamikazee sang “Narda”.

At this time my neck was starting to hurt because of trying to have a good sight of the stage for hours. Plus my legs were suffering mild cramps. Gosh varicose veins. But it was nothing. I waited all night for Bamboo and soon, 5 more minutes, I’d be seeing Ira. Yes, 5 minutes of set-up. If there’s someone more excited than I am that would be Irene. I constantly reminded her to relax. Haha! She was so funny.

The spotlight went on. I had a glimpse of the person fixing the guitar, he was on his knees. I didn’t mind him. I continued searching for Ira. But then I had a second look. Dumb me. It was Ira. Oh my God! I found myself screaming, at the top of my lungs, “Ira!!” and I was jumping. I realized that moment it was my highest jump that evening.

He was so gorgeous wearing that black shirt. Actually he would be better wearing nothing haha! Seriously, he was gorgeous. Gorgeous, that’s all I can say. *sigh* Kahit saang anggulo ang gwapo nya, really—when he’s serious, when the wrinkle on his forehead shows, especially when he smiles.

It was worth the 85 pesos.

I don’t expect other people to understand me. Anyway, I’ve always been misunderstood. It’s a misfortune on my part that I’m surrounded by narrow minded people. In addition to that, those power-hungry individuals who push others around just to be the “bida”. Oh come on. Give me a break. And oh… I almost forgot to mention those judgmental ones. They see themselves as good friends. In their bubble they criticize other people. Funny but what goes around comes around. Kawawa naman the “friend”, she’s being talked about. Huh. And I said nothing.

I almost died of boredom this past week. I got stuck at home since the “bombing” incident at Glorietta. gee.. At times like these I wish it wasn’t sem break. Anyway, I’m alive and kicking again after strolling in the mall today haha!

I really got busy this past months in school, so many things happened. I must say it was a better sem than the previous one–many lessons learned, met some new people, got acquainted with few classmates, got closer to a person haha! Better grades too, I guess. Too bad it was short by .05 to make the list of college scholars (again!) but it’s alright. Better luck on the last three semesters. That’s the hardest noh? You’re almost there but still can’t make it.

Hahrrrrggnnnn sleepy…

-signing off-

Last week, i was able to watch the pilot episode of Ugly Betty on Studio23. OK din pala. At first i didn’t want to watch it kasi parang ang baduy.Reminds me of the Mexican(or not) telenovela. It’s gonna be shown again tonight and i’m looking forward to that.

what a boring summer! wala man lang trip to wherever before going back to school this summer. yup! nagpapakadalubhasa e. yuck hindi bagay. i’m also planning to work. sana magkaroon na ako ng lakas ng loob. yeah lakas ng loob (dami kong issues)